I said goodbye to her before leaving for the bus going to Kajang from Kelantan. I hugged her twice and I could see her trying hard to hold back her tears.
I didn’t feel it at first,.. but then, in the bus I waved goodbye to my grandparents and her. I was smiling widely just so that I don’t want to be sad or make them feel sad.
When the bus started moving to our destination, I thought, ‘Goodbye, Kelantan! I’ll miss youuu~’
A few seconds after that, I thought again, ‘Bye kakak.. I hope you’re not that sad. I’ll miss you too. So much..’
I thought I was going to be okay but at the end, I couldn’t help it. I started crying my eyes out, thinking of my sister and all our memories together during the holidays.
I was having a brake down.
My heart started to shatter at the thought of the loneliness without my sister, Najwa at home. I was feeling awfully sad.
Even though I cried so much in the bus, even though my heart was screaming of sorrow at the time, both my mother and my younger sister didn’t even realize I did that. They were sitting next to me.
All I could do now is sigh.
Kakak, if you read this, I hope you know that I terribly miss you so so so sooooo much, dude. Hmm. ): Ily, sista~ Forever and always.
Semoga you and I, also our whole family dipanjangkan umur to meet each other in the future.
Bye dude. Ily.